Break Up

This is still quite raw so this won't be long, I just wanted people to know that just over a week ago Ed broke up with me. It wasn't completely out of the blue, we had both been aware for awhile that feelings weren't as deep as we thought/wanted/needed them to be. I was reasonably confident that how I felt would turn into love though looking at it now, I think I just really wanted it to be love. There was so much going for the relationship and we both enjoyed it, that it was hard to acknowledge that those feelings just weren't there on his side. But, Ed said he was sure that he wasn't in love and was confident he wasn't going to get there so the best thing for both of us was to end things. It has been hard to accept that but I can logically see the things that weren't working and can acknowledge that I would probably have got there at some point in the future too. That doesn't stop there being a huge hole in my life where he used to be, or the fact that I miss him, or that I am grieving for a future that I thought was a real possibility. My flatmates, friends, and colleagues have all been wonderful in supporting me and it has been wonderful to see I have built a strong community outside of my relationship with Ed. So. That is that. Some prayers for healing and the ability to trust God's plan for that part of my life would be much appreciated!